What My Soul Already Knows: A Simple Poetry Practice for a Dark Night of the Soul

Unconventional Spiritual Practices
Written By Kirsten Harrison
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Anchoring Into Deep Knowing

In the thick of a relational conflict years ago, I could not understand what my body was bracing against. Though I had no experience with poetry, I found my way into a surprisingly nourishing practice. Guided by a simple template called a “French Pantoum,” I remembered myself.

Attuning to my inner experience of the conflict helped me access things I already knew but could not reach directly amid the stress and my nervous system’s survival strategies.

It was powerful to name what I knew deep inside. Writing this poem was grounding—a way back to the wisdom that is already, always within me.

I’ve adapted that template as a Scaffold for Obscurity.

Writing a Pantoum for Obscurity

Here’s a practice that may help you slip below rational thinking and pro-con lists into intuition and wisdom. I hope this practice is as grounding for you as it has been for me.

Step-By-Step Instructions:

STANZA 1

Line 1: What it’s like when I’m connected and feeling alive (Try and tune into the good here)

Line 2: The inner experience of the hard thing I’m holding

Line 3: A song lyric that resonates with me

Line 4: Words of wisdom I would say to my younger self, or words of wisdom from a loved one that stick with me

STANZA 2

Line 5: (repeat of line 2 in stanza 1) The inner experience of the hard thing I’m holding

Line 6: (new line): My felt sense of what is hard right now (can be an image or a somatic sensation)

Line 7: (repeat of line 4 in stanza 1) Words of wisdom I would say to my younger self, or words of wisdom from a loved one that stick with me

Line 8: (new line): What I wish to feel or experience

STANZA 3

Line 9: (repeat line 6 of stanza 2) My felt sense of what is hard right now (can be an image or a somatic sensation)

Line 10: (repeat line 3 of the first stanza) A song lyric that resonates with me

Line 11: (repeat line 8 of stanza 2) What I wish to feel or experience

Line 12: (repeat line 1 of the first stanza) What it’s like when I’m connected and feeling alive


Here’s an example:

I can see the past, present, and future with a vast spaciousness.
I am so very tired of bracing.
Can I see I’m not my mistakes? Will I learn to let them go?
Life is hard, and that doesn’t mean you are doing it wrong.

I am so very tired of bracing.
I can’t seem to get a deep breath.
Life is hard, and that doesn’t mean you are doing it wrong.
I want to remember.

I can’t seem to get a deep breath.
Can I see I’m not my mistakes? Will I learn to let them go?
I want to remember.
I can see the past, present, and future with a vast spaciousness.

An example of a different pantoum (not quite the same as the format above).

I release the breath I’ve been holding, and my body softens into the moment.
I’m terrified, and I’m not totally sure why.
I see you, and I’m not going anywhere.
There’s a calming and a quickening. I am reminded that the way is made by walking.

I’m terrified, and I’m not totally sure why.
You are safe. You are loved. You are wise.
There’s a calming and a quickening. I am reminded that the way is made by walking.
I start feeling like myself again.

You are safe. You are loved. You are wise.
I see you, and I’m not going anywhere.
I start feeling like myself again.
I release the breath I’ve been holding, and my body softens into the moment.

  • If you want to share your poem with me, I’d love to read it!

  • You can listen to this podcast episode to hear more about the French Pantoum as a Scaffold for Lament with Tara Owens (one of my spiritual direction teachers), recorded at the very beginning of the pandemic. Her template is available in the show notes.

PRESENCE + SPACE | WITNESS + WITH-NESS

My name is Kirsten. Come and journey with me in spacious accompaniment/spiritual direction. It is a place to attune to your inner experiences over time, a place to ask questions and excavate intuitions in the spacious presence of a fellow traveler. I meet clients online and in person on Vashon-Maury Island in WA.

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PRESENCE + SPACE | WITNESS + WITH-NESS

My name is Kirsten. Come and journey with me in spacious accompaniment/spiritual direction. It is a place to attune to your inner experiences over time, a place to ask questions and excavate intuitions in the spacious presence of a fellow traveler. I meet clients online and in person on Vashon-Maury Island in WA.

Related Blog Posts:

Kirsten Harrison https://www.mysoul.space
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